In the last two posts, I pointed to the fact that there are two very different conversations going on within us all the time. The first is the conversation of the ego and the second is the conversation of your higher consciousness. I want to repeat again that It’s remarkable when you stop and realize for a moment that those two conversations are the ONLY ones we have to deal with. Life is far simpler than most people imagine. We arrive here with only the conversation of our higher consciousness and then life in this world allows the conversation of the ego to slowly but surely evolve.
The saddest of all the conversations of the ego is the one it has about you. If you really turned up the volume on the voice of your ego, you would hear it say to you: you’re not worthy, you’re not good enough and you’re not loved. As I tell all the time, this was true for me big time for so much of my life. Because I grew up in a home where when I did what I was supposed to do I heard nothing and when I did what I wasn’t supposed to do (can you relate) I heard plenty, I decided early in life that I wasn’t loved, I wasn’t very capable and I obviously wasn’t very smart.
That the ego tells us things like this has many implications. There is no real freedom to be you. We spend our lives hanging out in the shadows, trying not to be noticed, trying not to make waves, trying to just get by, all because we don’t want other people to find out what we believe to be the truth about ourselves.
When I went to law school, I literally tried to sit in the back row in every class, afraid to be called on, not wanting to show my ignorance. Yet I graduated in the top 10% of my class. Do you think that solved the problem? For the 18 years I practiced as a lawyer, there was never a day that I didn’t tell myself: if my clients only knew how many smarter lawyers there are then me, I wouldn’t have a client!
Our higher consciousness, on the other hand, knows the truth about us. As you have heard me say, you are brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous, etc etc etc. You were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within you. It’s not just in some of us, it’s in all of us. I am so thankful that I finally learned to listen to the truth of who I am. I literally was 50 years old when, in a program I was participating in, I turned the corner. For me, that was the day that life began.
Here’s the biggest joke of all. You spend an enormous amount of time worrying about what other people are thinking about you. NOBODY IS THINKING ABOUT YOU! They’re all thinking about what YOU are thinking about THEM!
It’s time to wake up. Take a stand that you are good enough, worthy and lovable. Stop trying to prove that, it’s already a done deal. There’s no place to get to, you’re already there. Try this: Just have some fun. See what life would be like if you did whatever you wanted to do and said whatever you wanted to say, without any regard to what others think. I think you’ll discover pretty quickly that nobody will notice anyway and you’ll experience a lot more freedom to just be.